nevermindnvm who caresnvm ..who caresHi . It's me , DiamondPuppy33. I will not be revealing who I was but I was a fake person and a manifestation of lies in 2017 and just a stupid kid with horrible things normalized to me due to people around me and unsupervised internet access. I owned other accounts that I posted on , I believe I was most known as PinkTrinaCat101 on here where I went by the name Trina. I acted as I were different people on each account despite having the same personality pretty much. I also lied about my age A LOT. I was not 13, I was not 16, I was not 18, and I certainly was not 20. I am unsure what ages I claimed to be on here as this was like 6 whole years ago clear in 2017 , but I was actually 10 years old the whole time. I am of course , no longer too young to be on this website and I have since moved accounts , I am sixteen now and so much has changed since 2017. Now here is the actual point of this blog post...
I remembered writing a Victorious fanfiction that was multiple chapters long. I vaguely remembered it having something to do with Beck and Tori dating and Jade being jealous and violent and threatening to kill Beck and Tori in a different language. I remembered thinking this was funny and I told my friends about this memory I had. Well, today I was going through my wiki contributions on all my old accounts , when I came across the 8th chapter of the exact fanfiction I was thinking of , which is available on my blog tab on this account for all to see as well as the other chapters too. It immediately came to my attention that I wrote out incest between Tori and Trina and I'd like to apologize for that. If it wasn't obvious by all the mispellings , the poorly written scary parts , and the way its so poorly written all together, I was a child when I wrote this. So many awful things were normalized to me as a child , such as: incest , pedophilia, age gaps in general, and more. Not only do I have trauma involving these three things from things that happened to me when I was 4, 9 , and 10 years old and when those things happened I was convinced what happened to me was normal and these wasn't anything wrong with it, and ontop of that I also had unsupervised internet access from a young age too. When I was 9-11 years old I got exposed to proship content and genuinely thought shipping gross things was okay. Even when I was told shipping incest is wrong , I still defended myself because I thought it was okay since it was just fiction and I wasn't supporting irl incest , which is a way of thinking proshippers tend to have. I wrote abt incest and I shipped it while being VERY PUBLIC about it.
I noticed someone commented "?" on the last published chapter I wrote where Beck was mad at Trina for taking Tori away from him and how he missed when Tori loved him and hated Trina. This comment was just from last year and it's what made me feel the need to apologize and say I'm not like this at all anymore. Because of my trauma , those types of ships actually make me super uncomfortable now and I realized long ago nothing that happened to me was normal and incest isnt normal nor is any other disgusting thing. I do not ship Tori and Trina anymore and I apologize for writing this stupid story like that.
I apologize if I made anyone uncomfortable with this as well, I know this type of content is pretty discomforting to some people , myself nowadays included. I will not be coming back after this , but I might stick around if this gets any attention.
I am so sorry to everyone I hurt by shipping gross things and writing about it and I hope you know I've stopped supporting that stuff years ago.
Also my name is not Diamond , Trina , Poppy , Olivia , or whatever names I claimed to be called on my accounts back then. I will not say my actual name but you can call me Spiral for the sake of this post. I lied so much about my identity then and looking back I feel like I wasnt anybody at all then. Nothing more than a manifestation of lies and random stuff.
Have a good day or night
-Spiral